Moving ON

Wow! How difficult is to move on. Luggage, there is luggage EVERYWHERE!!! Building a life is not easy, letting go is the most complicated thing ever. No matter where you turn, there is always a memory. It comes by to slap you in the face and tell you: Things never turned on the way you planned them! Is like life is mocking you. But don’t worry even though; I must tell you: MEMORIES will never(NEVER,EVER) go away; the easiest process to move on is just learning how to let go and not to care, is almost impossible to make the first step and go after whatever is waiting for you now. It takes a while(it seems forever) for you to realize you have to forget about the memories, the past, whatever hurt you, or whatever didn’t turn on the way you planned, because no matter how many back up plans you have, the only one that mattered was plan A, so… Just move on. Is not easy, but if you do not, then you won’t make new memories, and you won’t have more Plan A’s. So go ahead, stop planning, and begin living.

Matching

We all have an idea of what our ideal match would be. Don’t we? Well, we grow up
fantasizing about whatever and whoever we are going to end up with. What if you never imagined how your ideal match could or would be?
I have sat here, and observed how everything works. Lol. Is funny how people go from a relationship to another just to fill that empty space and never have realized that is better to be alone than to be with the wrong person. It seems this is a solitary thought among all the others that think is just wrong to be alone.
Society pushes you to get involve with someone, even if you know is not right. I guess we have to learn from mistakes like this. And when you do not want to get involved people wonder around what’s wrong with you…they wonder if you have jumped the bridge.. lol. In fact, there is nothing wrong with you. What is wrong with them? Can’t a 20 something year old girl or guy just be alone? We are young… and I guess is better not to settle for something that has no future, when you know what you deserve, you just haven’t found it.
Are you too idealistic that is almost a dream what you desire? Is it too much to ask for something you know you deserve? Well I’m the type of person that has learned why not to settle with some bargain junk as I call this type of arrangements.
Don’t we all deserve a kind person, considerate, honest, sensitive(not a wuss), smart, funny, comphrensive…. And the most important FAITHFULL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gee…. I never thought that could be an issue… I guess it is in this market… FIDELITY HERE, doesn’t exist, I guess is cultural...is almost impossible… lol….Is fidelity real? I know it is… but here sometimes it looks like a fairy tale. I can count with my right hand the couples that I know that have been faithful to eachother. Is it too much to ask? Or am I just becoming too damn cynical? Well, maybe is just a maybe, but I’m not lying to what my eyes have seen.
Isn’t love just a chemical reaction? Isn’t it about a predetermined mold of an ideal mate? Isn’t it about communication, intellect, physical attraction and overwhelming emotions? To me, is an encounter of two minds, bodies and souls who find themselves helplessly drawn to each other auras. I guess I’ll try not to settle for anything less.
Have you ever had something like this? I know I haven’t…yet. Im still waiting for “my prince charming”.

One soul, One mind, One spirit, One feeling, An universal Culture> An old Book”

I want to share this thought with my true friends, old friends. When they’ll read this, im sure they will identify themselves with this message. And I dedicate this specially to my dearest friend, Natalie Wagner. Who has recently left to germany, again L.
I once read “The definition of a friend from day to day, nothing defines the quality of our lifes as the unwavering affirmation in the eyes, in the voices, in the presence of our friends. It is through them that we truly begin to know ourselves; and it is their affection that assures our dignity and our worth” > Robert Sexton.
I truly believe this. And to “ Natalie and David” it might sound familiar to you guys because is from the old days of my famous book :P, of our famous book. Today I have found a name for our book, cause is not only of my property, it belongs to all of us. It’s a common thought, a common spirit, a common feeling that we must all share with our other friends, with the world. We shall all spread our words, and what makes us unique, what makes us be so special, what makes us be different. This book is a symbol of a common spirit and culture. And its thoughts shall not remain to ourselves. It is private, but is also what life is about: time, friendship, bonding, love, society, history, art, and our earth “our environment”> the human being, what we care about. I believe we can share it, and have it as a representation of a circle. Of one mind, an old book.
Time is walking by, leaving its steps behind, and giving us hope and the desire of wanting more and more. Looking backwards, we have shared our time together and of course our most true feelings between ourselves. I have learned so much in so little time, and it seems so long ago… and I’m still learning. You guys always remind me what my north is. And every time I forget, I just have to take a second, and look back, because sometimes we lose ourselves into banal things, and we forget what we are deep inside. Always looking back to remind our young spirit, innocent, dreamers, lovers, and just a free spirit. Never judging anybody, cause is about accepting, transforming and just doing with what you have, with what you are.
When our wings have been cut, we must all learn how to make them grow again. Have a strong spirit, have the courage to go on. We are fighters, dreamers, and we must stand up to whatever we believe in. “We are what we believe in”> Benjamin N. Cardozo., and “we will always be the best we have” Woody Allen. And of course “we must always be happy and grateful to God, no matter what situation we are in”> lts 5:16. Everything happens for a reason.
With lots of love>
An old friend, a dreamer, a fighter, a lover and a young spirit.
Lis.

The scent of hope

The irony of life is that everything is meant to be learned, for good or bad, we must all learn of every situation and gather our experiences and just let go, the past, live the present and wish the best to come for our future.
It is unbelievable how we never lose our hopes. I believe that is the last thing we lose, but it is hard to continue, and to have the courage just to go through, tolerating the past, realizing and accepting that life is not a fairy tale. Life is hard as you grow up, it can make you a bitter, a dreamer, a loser, a winner, a cold person, or just the one that sits and waits and never does anything. Is hard to have hope, but somehow we still find it inside, no matter what happens.
We yell, we laugh, we cry, we just wonder around, and feel impotent, sad, happy, unsecure, lost, proud, ashamed and any other feeling you can imagine. Is a mix of emotions when you live under a situation where you can see all the wrong things and yet… nobody does anything to fix them. When you see the enormous contrast between the different circles of society. When you see a non equal world, a society that is not giving any opportunities to the talented, to the dreamers, to those who want to build a better society, a better future for the generations to come. Is sad and embarrassing how you just have to learn to live with it, to stop fighting against what’s wrong, and just see it as an every day event.
Is amazing how society has adapted to these changes, to life with this feeling inside, it seems it has forgotten it’s past, and, is meant to live it again. As an old proverb says “A country that doesn’t know their past, that is not conscient of what’s happening and what has happen with it’s political-social and economical situation, is meant to repeat its history in a drastically way”.
Is hard to be a dreamer, and see your every day dream crashing in front of your eyes on a daily basis. It makes you not sad, but it gives you a frustrating taste of how cruel life can be.
All the big contrasts, surrounded by them; it makes me happy that I can see them, and that I can try to make a difference and just somehow educate others to make a difference; but it makes me sad to see lots of people just ignoring this, and teaching others just to become ignorants, and blind about what reality is.
Is not easy to close your eyes, to cover them and create a parallel reality that to you it becomes real, a lie to you eyes. But I must say is easier to do this than to open your eyes and see how reality crashes everything in front of you, “like twisting your heart, and breaking it in many pieces”.
Do you have other options? Today in societies like this, and like most of all, we learn the value of money, but what they don’t teach you is that money is not everything in this world. Is just a piece of paper. It has no other value. How can you compare a life, to a piece of paper? Well, this is whats happening every day.
We lose many lifes because there is not enough money to feed them, to give them the appropriate healthcare, the minimum things to survive such as a roof to sleep under. And yet… there is enough money to buy expensive cars, expensive lifestyles, expensive minimum things that are just capricious small touches, unnecessary adorns… and we choose that instead of saving a life, or giving a better education to a kid.
How can you lie to yourself everyday when you know what is coming after? How can you live and not do anything to make it better? How can you forget the history and lose all your values an the scent of being a citizen, a human being? Well, somehow you lie to yourself and that is how we can find hope everyday.